Archive for April, 2010

April 21, 2010

But I Still Have a Lot to Learn

I don’t know what I’m doing awake. I meant to sleep for the night, but my body only seems to want a nap. It’s interesting, frustrating, to be aware of my mind and body being out of sync with each other. Though I couldn’t tell you if the interest lies in my being so aware of this chasm or in the severity of the disconnect between the two.

This last week was a hard one. It has forced me to reevaluate many aspects of my life. I have a long, winding road ahead of me. The realization, though, is not of the path, but of where I stand on it. I am self-aware.

I think.

April 14, 2010


May or may not be the worst day of my life.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

April 8, 2010

There’s Always Something in the Way

…And it’s probably me.

I’m too young to feel this old.

April 1, 2010


I’m not coming back to KCAI next year.

I’m going to (finally) dye my hair dark green.

I’m getting two tattoos, one on each wrist; probably this weekend.

I’m going to be single for longer than at least year.

I’m going to try culinary school on for size. I love cooking. That way, I can at least have a semi-stable profession.

This list isn’t necessarily in order.

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